“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.” ~ James 1:5
One of the things I find joyless about being a single parent is getting stuck with the job of making all the decisions. Especially since my only child is a toddler, I am literally making all the decisions for both of us, all day, every day. It can be simultaneously exhausting and intimidating, because in the moment I have no idea if I’m getting it right.
However, there are times when I relish this from the selfish perspective: Ha! I don’t have to consider anyone else’s feelings! It’s just me! Me! Me! Me! And yet, I think this trap may be deeper than that of my loathing of having to be the sole decision-maker, because I slip into the habit of not talking to anyone about my big decisions – not even God.
And when I forget to talk to Him…well, suddenly everything seems much bigger and more impossible. And then I feel like I can’t deal with anything and start making all sorts of ill-advised decisions.
Yet God’s guidelines for decision-making are so simple that I feel bad for not just following them in the first place: If you need wisdom, just ask. He’ll give it to you.
Those simple guidelines make all my sleepless nights and hours of endless stewing seem like exactly what they are: a waste of time. God is ever present and wants to help – all I need to do is ask.