“I set out during the night with a few others. I had not told anyone what my God had put in my heart to do for Jerusalem. There were no mounts with me except the one I was riding on.” ~ Nehemiah 2:12
In my Bible study group, we are currently studying Nehemiah. I think this is terrific for a lot of reasons; the main one being that the last time I thought about Nehemiah was probably in college, when I took Old Testament. Since that was a while ago, it’s really good for me to revisit this book.
And Nehemiah was a pretty terrific guy.
Nehemiah lived in the time after the Israelites had been carried off as slaves and the city of Jerusalem had been destroyed. Nehemiah’s heart was for restoration – he wanted to rebuild the city, in spite of the fact that the very kind he served as cupbearer was the king who had ordered that the city not be rebuilt.
What impresses me more than anything about Nehemiah is how he relied completely on God. He had a desire to rebuild Jerusalem, but he didn’t tell anyone – as it says in today’s verse. He didn’t seek a human opinion on whether going before the king and asking permission to rebuild the city was a good idea. He sought only God, and even after he had permission to go, still did not say anything.
This, to me, is amazing. I think too often we don’t go to God first, not because we don’t trust Him, but because we crave the immediate gratification of having someone agree with or encourage us. We don’t want to wait on the Lord – we want affirmation now.
If God has put something on your heart – don’t be afraid to keep it between the two of you. Talk it over with Him, and keep turning to Him throughout every step of the way. God alone is enough.