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“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” ~ Matthew 6:34

Yesterday, my son and I spent time at a friend’s house, giving my little boy the opportunity to cheerfully play all afternoon with a friend.  Both little boys had a great time.  My friend’s son is a year older than my own boy is, so it’s always amazing to me to see the difference a year can make in the life of a child.  He’s so much more verbal that my son, and is a lot more independent and engaged in play.  It’s incredible for me to watch, as a mom.

But there was a moment that put a little bit of fear into my heart, while watching these two little ones play away.  It was when my friend returned home from her doctor’s appointment.  Before she had left for her appointment, her husband had also left, as he travels for work.  Upon her return, her little boy ran up to her, and asked the question that I know someday I’m going to hear:

“Where’s daddy?”

And it was like an internal countdown clock started clicking in my head, telling me, “You have a year.”

You have a year, and then your little boy will also ask the inevitable questions that you dread hearing.

A year.

And suddenly I started to panic a little bit.  It’s too fresh – I’ll cry too much.  I can’t face these questions.  I’m not ready.

But then God did something wonderful, as He usually does, and reminded me that I don’t have to be ready today.  A year from now, the pain will have lessened a little bit more.  And I will be able to face these questions, because I want to be able to tell my little boy all about what an awesome dad he has.

God took the time to teach us, in His word, that we are only to focus on today.  We can’t take the imaged worries of tomorrow and pile them onto today.  We have enough to think about right now.  He knew we would need these instructions, and He made sure they were written down for us, so we would always remember.