“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” ~ Romans 12:2

As I was getting my little boy ready for bed tonight, I had an odd thought.  I wondered what my husband would think if he could walk in the front door right now.  What would he think about all the changes I’ve made around the house?  The painting, the rearranging?  What would he think about our son?

Even more so, what would he think about me?  Would he be surprised that I’m working from home, even though that wasn’t the plan?  Somehow I doubt it – he knew me too well.  And what would he think about how much the past fourteen months have done to change me?

I think he’d be proud of me – proud of us – and how we’ve handled things.  I really do.  But I also know that it would take some reacquainting, because I am not the same person I used to be in many, many ways.  And that’s okay.  In fact, it’s better than okay, because I think God has done a lot with the raw canvas I ended up after my husband’s death.

I love that this verse implies that the renewing of your mind is ongoing – it tells me that God will be working on me for the rest of my life.  To me, today, it’s nice to know that I will always be a work in progress, because there’s always room for improvement.