“Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed.” ~ Mark 1:35
The other day, I left the room my little boy was in to put something away. As I walked back in, I noticed that he was completely absorbed in looking at the toy in his hand. He was also standing all by himself, not holding on to anything. As soon as he saw me, he grabbed onto the shelf nearby and went right back to playing. Almost like he didn’t want me to see that he could do it on his own!
It made me think of what we, as adults, are like when we think no one is looking. Are we trying new things, attempting to conquer our fears? Or do we take a break from our attitude of living life-as-performance and do all the things we know we’re not supposed?
In Angela Thomas’ book, “My Single Mom Life,” she talks about how, after her divorce, she made sure she went to bed really early every night. Like nine o’clock early. She put her kids to bed and then she did the same. Her reasoning was that late at night, by herself, her defenses would be down and that seems to be the time when people get in the most trouble. So instead of just feeling like she was home alone, she decided to be home alone with her integrity, and remove the risk.
I really appreciated this viewpoint, and now work really hard to remember that I may be alone now, but I’m alone with my integrity. And I want to be able to show God that I did the best I could to act with integrity in every way possible – which also means I am working very hard to be a good example to my little boy.
Consider this in your own life, when no one’s looking. You have a chance to be totally focused on God, in the presence of your Creator alone.