“I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the LORD sustains me.” ~ Psalm 3:5
One of the things that I have missed the most during this season of grief is my ability to lie down and go to sleep quickly. Or sometimes, at all. Every night, I find myself struggling to rest, knowing that every minute the clock is ticking closer to morning and I’ll have to get up and start everything all over again, ready or not.
This morning was no exception. As soon as I heard the cheerful babbling from my son’s room, my initial thought was, “Oh no, not yet. I don’t have time for a nap.” I can’t think that it’s a good thing, to be wishing for a nap before you’ve even opened your eyes.
But somehow, each day, I get through it. Some days are great; I have enough energy to leap over tall buildings with a single bound. Other days, it’s more muddling through, but everything that really needs to get done, gets done.
And I think that I am learning through all this how to determine what really needs to get done. There are things we want to do, and things we have to do, but I think the Lord offers to sustain us through things that we need to do. He grants us plenty of rest to follow our calling, which is amazing to me.